i'm back from Laos.. and i managed to survive! :)
not like it was really really hardship, but i had food poisoning i thought it almost killed me.
haha.



i woke up at 5.30am..
not sure if i'm too used to waking up so early for sunrise every morning or i'm just sleeping too much.
and the empty feeling doesn't seem to go away. i need to do something.



boy, i really do miss Laos.
another trip on sept? *grins



anyway, flight to shanghai this saturday morning is on.
and i'm tired.
of having to travel again after touching down for less than 5 days.
of working.
of having no crazy girls around me.
of having no animals around me.
and i'm gonna miss everyone here for the next 4 months or so!










photos up soon (i hope), when i'm in shanghai! :)

it was dad's  對年 yesterday.
despite all the memories that ran through my mind throughout the prayer session, i managed to stay calm.

i couldn't believe how time flies this past year.
and i'm not sure if my life is considered complete, but life moves on.
i just wished that daddy's still here.

slept over at anson's became a bad choice when i left alone, feeling upset.
can't explain why it was so strong but it just came upon me.



no wonder he says i have post menstrual syndrome.
sighh.
i'm terribly sorry, dear.



thank god mum was feeling rather good at home, and so i avoided a scolding for reaching home at 5pm on a Sunday.
fell asleep in bed after allowing all the negative thoughts to run wild in my mind.


why can't i shake these thoughts off..?
i don't want to lose you, not at all.




on the other hand, leaving for Laos in 2 days' time, and Shanghai in slightly more than 2 weeks' time.
can't help but not feel like going. i have serious financial problems. i'm so unprepared for the trips that i feel super worried.
sighh.

a new blog account after almost 4 years. still figuring things out, so please pardon the untidiness.



well, life moves on despite the big fight. not sure if i'm gonna regret my decision but, if nobody celebrates and appreciates my presence there, i thought i should leave and be celebrated & appreciated elsewhere. and yes i still have my 'best bf in the whole wide world' and my 'animals' with me. and you'll live happily ever after, without me, better still.





it hurts to know that they came from you, but it's over. let's just move on with life. i'm done with the sadness and cryings.

testingggg